Drowning Dalliance

This illustration is about a specific circumstance I was in with a person.

A liminal state between succumbing to the circumstances and staying upright. We are mid-fall. Trying to overcome the overwhelming odds stacked against us, in defiance of the expected outcome.

Figuring out what love could be. People with more authority stuck their fingers into it, and forced certain outcomes. We tried so hard to fight against it. We fought against it for years, traumatizing each other over and over again. It was already dead, like a fish turned up in water. Puppeteering something that could no longer move.

I was a kid, and I didn’t react correctly to the situation. I’m so sorry. We don’t talk anymore. We haven’t talked in a long time. And that’s okay. We let it fall. It needed to fall.

I wanted to make this larger than printer paper, so I used several pieces of paper. I scanned each piece in, and then stitched it together in Adobe Photoshop. Made the final adjustments in Adobe Illustrator. Like a frankenstein. Trying to force the outcome I wanted, when the resources weren’t there.